Verum Peto

Post Render: The Calling

2010-09-15T01:06:00.001-07:00

Using PostWorkshop

New Render

2010-09-14T09:04:00.000-07:00

Been a while since I rendered anything. Hope you like. :)

Special Thanks To:
Daz for M4
Satanica Gens

Whats the best type of kiss?

2010-09-11T14:12:00.000-07:00

Suck Kissing

This can be a very seductive type of kiss. Instead of French Kissing with your mouth open, while your partner's lips are parted suck on their top our bottom lip with your own, just for a second or two. Then go back to another type of kiss or try the other lip.

Nip Kissing

This type of kiss has to be done carefully, but when done correctly can create a wonderful effect on your partner. While suck kissing, gently bite their lip, but be VERY gentle so as not to hurt your partner. This kiss should only be done with someone that you've kissed a few times before, otherwise you may shock your partner.

Surprise Kissing

This type of kiss is done when your partner is lying down on a sofa or the ground, either asleep or just lying with their eyes closed. Quietly approach your partner and place a small, very gentle kiss on their lips. Intensify the kiss until your partner opens their eyes or awakens.

Vacuum Kissing

This is a playful kiss. While in an open-mouthed kiss, suck in deeply so you're sucking the air from your partner.

Cordial Kissing

Take a sip of your favorite drink, either alcohol or something sweet, and then when your lips meet pour the drink in your partner's mouth. Only take a very small sip.

Butterfly Kissing

Put your eye really close to your partner's cheek and flutter your lashes upon their skin. You can also do this on their lips.

Melt Kissing (from visitor's email)

Pass an ice cube back and forth in mouth while French kissing.

Marathon Kissing (from visitor's email)

See how long you can kiss for (try 5 - 10 minutes straight)

Glow stick Frenzy (from visitor's email)

Pass the mini mouth glow stick back and forth (same thing as melt kissing).

Tongue Sucking (from visitor's email)

When you have the chance to get really deep into your partners mouth, suck on their tongue as far as you can. Don't suck to hard, you don't want to hurt your partner. Otherwise it's very pleasing!

Candy Kiss (from visitor's email)

Use either a Jolly Rancher or some type of hard candy/mint. Either you or your partner place the candy in your/their mouth and then it is like a game of keep away. Whoever starts tries to keep the candy in their mouth while the other person tries to get it in theirs. But you can only use your tongue and lips. This can be very fun if you have the right partner!!! Enjoy.

Sigh Kiss (from visitor's email)

When you first start kissing your partner gently lick their lips with the tip of your tongue. Then blow or sigh into their lips, causing a tingling feeling that will intensify your kiss for sure.

The Tickle Kiss (from visitor's email)

In this kiss you make use of the fact that the roof of the mouth is the most ticklish part of the body. Begin a normal French kiss and (be sure your partner understands the game) stroke your tongue across the roof of each other's mouth. This will create almost unbearable chills down your spine and the winner is the person who can stand them because the loser pulls away. The best part about this kiss is that it is different every time and always fun.

Name Kiss (from visitor's email)

If u have run out of things to do with your tongue spell your name. This works very well and everyone likes
it!

Tongue Wars (from visitor's email)

Each person tries to get their tongue in the other persons mouth while they try to get their tongue in your mouth. Each person "blocks" the other persons tongue with theirs. The winner gets to pick the next type of kiss. This game is great for reliving first make-out tension.

Starburst Trick (from visitor's email)

Out a starburst in your mouth, and while French kissing try to unwrap it! Enjoy!

Pop Kiss (from visitor's email)

Use pop-rocks, great fun. You've heard of fireworks, this is an explosion!

Ring Kiss (from visitor's email)

What you do is take a ring off your finger and put it on your tongue. Then while you and your partner are french kissing, he tries to slip it on the tip of his tongue! It is a lot of fun!

Tongue Tease (from visitor's email)

When you're French kissing, if/when you pull back, and before your mouths meet again, you can flick your tongue up and down quickly against the other person who is doing the same. It's very teasing and fun to see how long it lasts. Its hard to resist going strong after a while of flicking.

Touch Kiss (from visitor's email)

You do this after you and your partner have Frenched or really kissed alot. What you do is just simply touch tongues - like the tip of your tongue. You may want to move it around but you don't have to. You don't do it inside your mouth you do it out in the open.

Underwater Kiss (from visitor's email)

Have your partner hold their breath underwater and when he or she taps you give them air.

Moving Kiss (from visitor's email)

Make sure a bed or couch or chair is behind your partner and when French kissing gently push your partner onto the chair or whatever is behind them. Very good for serious couples or just beginners.

Flavor Kissing (from visitor's email)

Put a piece of long lasting gum in your mouth (Hubba Bubba, Trident) just before you and your partner French kiss. While kissing pass the gum back and forth, and see how long it takes for the flavor to run out!

Chin Kiss (from visitor's email)

Hold your partner's chin with your middle, index, and thumb and tilt their head in the right direction. Continue to hold it as you kiss.

Lip Venom (from visitor's email)

Before you go to kiss your partner, apply lip venom to your lips when he isn't looking. Lip venom is a safe cosmetic item that you can buy at Scarlets and other cosmetic stores and what it does is it draws the blood to your lips, making them red and tingly. A little bit goes a very long way and can still be passed up until probably about a half an hour after applying. When your partner kisses you, he will have this sensual feeling running through his lips for the rest of the day.

Pepper Kiss (from visitor's email)

Take a hot pepper and roll it on your lips then kiss your partner. It gives the kiss a kick. (Note use peppers as hot as you or your partner can take, but not too hot or it will just burn and ruin the kiss.)

Chew Kiss (from visitor's email)

Tell your partner to place their tongue deeply into mouth deeply... you VERY GENTLY "chew" on the back part of their tongue... do not suck. This will create a sensation in other places that can be very exciting!

Breath Kiss (from visitor's email)

In a hot moment - creates major anticipation - barely touch lips with lips slightly parted... then breath your partner's breath... moving heads slowly to experience different sensations... lips touching on and off slightly... it is a very teasing sort of kiss and builds passion tremendously.

Tongue Ring Kiss (from visitor's email)

What you do is, if your partner has a tongue ring and the two of you are French kissing, mess with his/her tongue ring while kissing and it gives your partner chills and excitement/happiness because a lot of people with tongue rings love that. Or if the two of you have a tongue ring have a tongue ring WAR! What you do is keep his/her tongue away from your tongue ring, while you're messing with their tongue ring. (NOTE: don't Tangle tongue rings together because that will be a disaster!)

Do What You Want Kiss (from visitor's email)

This is always fun. One of you just lies there, and the other does whatever he or she wants to give pleasure. Then, you switch roles. See who can give the most satisfying kiss, with the other not participating at all.

Trade-Off Kiss (from visitor's email)

One of you gets a cinnamon candy and the other a mint. One takes the cinnamon and the other the mint. While French kissing switch them from time to time.

Who Lasts Longer Kiss (from visitor's email)

Sit very close to each other, your lips almost touching, arms where you please. Sit like this, very close, and see who can go the longest without kissing the other. It's great fun because you can lose on purpose and still win!

Spiderman Kiss (from visitor's email)

It's just like in the movie. You kiss upside down, taking in both of your lower lips and do all those other kisses listed above.

Spitzer Kiss (from visitor's email)

What you do is when you are ready to kiss (or even while you're Frenching or doing any other kiss) is gently nibble and/or lick the parts just above or below your partner's lip. Now don't slobber all over your partner. Just give enough saliva to get them damp. This is very fun and romantic. It will also turn your partner on or in other words make them like the kiss more.

Steam Kiss (from visitor's email)

You or your partner drink a very hot drink while the other drinks a very icy cold one and see if there's some steam. It's fun because if it doesn't work, just keep trying!

Lap Kiss (from visitor's email)

While your partner is laying with his/her head in your lap, lean over and kiss her/him. Your bottom lip will be on your partner's top lip, and vise versa. You can even French kiss while in this position. This kiss is a playful kiss, and it can lead to much more.

Carmex Kiss (from visitor's email)

If either you or your partner are not carmex junkies, apply a little carmex to your lips and feel the gentle tingle on your lips.

Muzzle Kiss (from visitor's email)

When kissing the neck of your partner, at one point blow air out of your mouth while pressing the lips down, creating the sound of some sort of... flatulence.! It should be ever so unexpected and quite interesting indeed.

Dive Gear Kiss (from visitor's email)

While diving in a pool, one person wears a diving mask and the other person has to close their eyes and hold on to the mask-wearing person really close. Then trade the inhaling part of the dive gear. Take a deep breath and take the inhaler part away. Kiss the person wherever or however you like, then switch places. This should only be done with some one you truly trust would not hurt you.

SOURCE: http://www.kissingbooth.com/kiss.htm

http://www.kissingbooth.com/kiss.htm

Contemplation

2010-09-04T09:22:00.000-07:00

Most of the time:
Sex complicates life....
hmmmm....

Envy Vs. Jealousy

2010-09-02T15:13:00.000-07:00

Interesting fact I learned today is the difference between envy and jealousy:
ENVY: Is ill will to another person because you feel he/she has an advantage over you.
JEALOUSY: Basically being possessive of a person or thing

Quote of the Day: Except from "Raised by Wolves" By W.A. Hoffman
"One cannot appreciate the warmth until there is cold to give it meaning."

Advice: Curiosity Killed the Cat

2010-09-01T10:02:00.000-07:00

I have a natural epiphany for curiousity [alone it is not a detrimental state of mind] but I have the tendency to act "why" and "what" at inopportune times.

Any advice?

Slogan

2010-08-31T14:45:00.000-07:00

Following in Angelo's footsteps..

Think it turned out quite well...
wink wink...

Link to Slogan Site [click here]
Try your luck... =)

Libertine

2010-08-30T14:55:00.001-07:00

[ME]

A Damn Proud of It!

Most norms are a bore! LMAO

[grinning wickedly]

Reflection

2010-08-25T15:29:00.000-07:00

I'm a living contradiction, One moment I feel like I understand a certain concept about myself, then the next moment something/someone comes along to alter it. Not in a bad way too! :)

Hello

2010-08-24T10:27:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys been a while since I last posted or commented on your profiles.

Don't have a good excuse, just life.

I'm doing great, working and studying now here in the States.

Almost don't with my academics in 2 1/2 months, I'm very excited!! Taking up MAA - Medical Admin Assistant.

Work is alright, can't wait to move on from it!

Breaking Hearts

2010-05-03T10:08:00.000-07:00

When I was a kid adults would tell me, “your soooo handsome, you’re gonna break many hearts”, then chuckle lightly like I was the most entertaining idea of the moment. Being who I am I would muster the cuties smile without straining anything. Find a way to excuse myself and dash for the nearest exit before then start pinching my cheeks. Then totally disregard the comment and go on my merry childlike ways. For a child the concept of breaking hearts ranks up there with extra terrestrials-coming-to-Earth-to-enslave-the-human-race theory.

As always later in life clarity is a cruel bitter bitch. You realize that in the message they left out one vital fact: when breaking people’s hearts there is very likely chance that you are breaking yours as well.

Contemplation

2010-04-28T10:51:00.000-07:00

We can safely say that no two lives are completely alike.

With that in mind do the obstacles we encounter in life are weaved perfectly into our tapestry

all of it is based upon the chaotic and randomness of the world?

I Liiivvvveeee!

2010-04-28T01:00:00.001-07:00

Sorry haven't posted in a while. Well I'm trying to get back into the habit of blogging. It's a good outlet for me. Here are some new things that have been/happened since I was gone:

1. Stopped creating 3D art. (Just can’t find the time anymore)

2. Go to school full-time taking up MAA – Medical Admin Assistant (I look awesome in the maroon scrubs – ahm, forgive the vanity… hehe)

3. Working part-time in retail

4. Back to working out… (this boy needs to work on his tone)

5. Bought a couple of new toys:

a. Sony PRS-300:

b. Ipod Shuffle:

c. And some not-so-rated-pg ones: & I'm very

6. Still single (not a surprise there … lol)

7. New Game:

8. New Books:

9. Went to my first gay club in Seattle (The Cuff): Yes people I have been initiated! (bow)

More Updates Later

Thanks for Reading!!!

Happy Thanksgiving

2009-11-26T12:05:00.000-08:00

Sorry haven't posted anything lately. :P

Inner Childhood

2009-11-07T00:53:00.000-08:00

Ever notice no matter how old we get we somehow preserve a part of out childhood within us. It could be simple pleasures such as longing for the peanut and butter sandwich your mom used to make you for a snack or just playing in the rain. For me its a simple matter of cartoons, so far I haven't grown out of the desire to watch em and yeah I'm talking about shows like Spongebob Squarepants, Ben 10, Pokemon and even old sitcoms such as Roseanne and The Nanny are my guilty pleasures.

Whats are yours?

Reading

2009-11-03T23:34:00.001-08:00

Some read for the pursuit of knowledge and wisdom
while some for the escape into a realm of fantasy?

Which are you?

Happy Halloween

2009-10-31T11:40:00.000-07:00

CREDITS:

Tribal Sun Tattoo By Hastati95

Pumpkin By Dorkati of Renderosity

Jamie Hair By AprilYSH

Can't Believe Its Just A Commercial

2009-10-29T00:19:00.000-07:00

The Power of Dreams...
With enough will we can touch the sky...
[big smile]

Fall Has Came To Kent

2009-10-26T10:46:00.001-07:00

I love the color change of leaves when fall arrives.
Changing to every color of the rainbow.
It's just a beauty to behold.

Warning: Emoting

2009-10-20T18:49:00.001-07:00

Awesome part of being in love is knowing and experiencing how it feels. Down side of love is when you lose it there are times late a night when you crave for it something deep inside you aches, almost like rekindling old emotions you subconsciously held under ball and chain then suddenly let go under the burden of dusk.

Bitter Sweet

2009-10-17T13:39:00.000-07:00

Came across this clip on facebook.
Just struck a nerve.
I'm I too sentimental? :P

New Render

2009-10-16T22:49:00.001-07:00

Soul Bonding
When two halves of a soul meet in that instant their souls unite.

Marriage

2009-10-15T09:51:00.000-07:00

I wanna get married to the man I will fall in love with one day, call me a romantic. For me it feels like one of the most effective way of showing someone how much you love em.

Is it such a unlikely thing to dream about?

My New 3D Renders

2009-10-11T14:22:00.000-07:00

Titled: Unlikely Portal
Description: Don't you just hate those pesky wormholes?

Titled: Sacrifice for Love
Description: What would you do for the one you love? Would you be willing to die for him?

Titled: The Proposal
Description: Will you marry me?

Wanna see my older renders: CLICK HERE

Dreamers

2009-10-10T23:15:00.000-07:00

I wrote this short poem when I was in my teenhood [Is there a word? WTF there is now LOL] . I believe it was for a assignment for school but to tell the truth I can’t recall anymore... I was around 16 years of age during this time. Time in my life when everything seems to be falling apart and I was trying to reorganize all the tidbits of piece that where left behind at the same time making a new life, new beliefs, and new dreams. Anyway, enough emote! Hehe! Life is too interesting to dwell on the past, here it goes hope you like it… =P

Dreamers

Dreamers come in myriad forms
That floats above translucent eyes,
In which their deepest dreams stay concealed
Unblemished light, resembling all.

Dreamers prove passion
Dreamers show eternal fate
And through these dreams will come a new

Be brilliant dreamers of the world,
For your dreams will conceive what is to come
Fight for what you deem is just
Thus the future will be still its course…
--- Knoxxy

My Coming Out Story

2009-10-10T22:57:00.000-07:00

I came out when I was around 15 or 16 years old, we where still living in Washington State during that time. I believe around 2 year high school at Kent Meridian. My bestfriend and fag hag, Jackie Lopez, was my sole confider. A strong willed gal with the heart to match. I always believed she will go places especially since she had the guts to fight for her dreams.

Anyway like I said before I’m a total nerd, I read up on literature on how to come out to the people you love and what to expect in order to prepare you somewhat emotionally and mentally. I did not like surprises during that time of my life. You could imagine why.
That night I very FREAKED OUT but I told my parents [while balling in tears, yeah, not my greatest moment in life]. You have to understand my parents are Missionaries, so you could imagine their view on homosexuality. I confess in the back of my mind i feared they would shove my out the door and tell me they don’t wanna see my face again.

Here comes the Good new / Bad News scenario:
Good news: It turned out better then I expected.

They just asked me if I was sure: I said, "Yes."
They said the path I’m taking is not easy: "Yeah I know."

Bad news: They wanted to help/cure me they believed it was just a phase in my life.
Maybe you just confused they said: "No.. I’m not but if it will make you happy I will see someone.", I stated.
And I did. Not the wisest decision of my life but I love them.

So yada yada, I agreed to get some “help” for my parents sake and at that time believing for my own also. Since my parents had a lasting relationship with the church hence it became my therapeutic sanctity for the next year and a half I believe. To tell the truth time turned into blur for me after couple of months into my one-on-one sessions for "redemption".

What I can recall is it did not go so well for me, I went into severe depression a few months into the session but you know what the amusing thing is: I could not find it in my heart to blame the church even until now. I know their hearts where in the right place. They believed in the truth that the life I was drawn to is a sin.

I learned later in life that the truth has many facades and we choose to believe in the one’s that suits our needs.

But alas, all of it had an effect on my psyche. I don’t know when I started contemplating my own death and I would love to give a logical explanation for that plan but let’s face it the only taught racing through my mind in those moments were: the world would be better off without me.

Thankfully I was young and very naive and I never got around reading the “Suicide for Dummies Handbook” [Yes! It’s non-existent] =P Lesson 101 clearly states: Never plan it. You’ll freak your pants off. LOL and it did. I am very glad and lucky to report I never got close to act itself. Hard to explain but one day the truth just hit me quite literally on the face: Here I was thinking of ways to escape my problem : “Why not just accept it? Your G-A-Y Knoxxy. Live with it.”

And that’s what I did.

I would love to say I came out of all of this unscathed, the world is perfect and there is not such this as world hunger but that would be a bunch of hoopla. Until now I’m still working on some issues yet proud to say I have came a long way from the confused 16 year old.

Nowadays I learned to appreciate what I am: I try to make the best of each day and just handle each day as it comes… Thus ending my narration or should I say starting a new one. :-)

Repost

2009-10-10T22:51:00.000-07:00

I'll be re-posting some of my old stuff soon. Just gonna edit them a bit. Hope you still enjoy them as I did creating them.

BTW can you guys click my "Follow" button again. Much Appreciated...

Hello

2009-10-10T02:21:00.000-07:00

Hi I'm back, sorry for the absence; did a bit of soul searching.

Had to realized the reasons why I started a blog, conclusion:
1.To Learn
2.To Network
3.To Vent

Thus the new blog title was created "Verum Peto" the Latin words meaning "Truth Seeker". I think a good title for a new beginning. I think it will be an interesting journey realizing what I will post along the way. As of for now welcome to my new blog... If your up to it follow me around!

Thanks and Take Care,
Knoxxy